Saturday, September 06, 2008Ejacs 5, 6, and 7
5. I was in the shower, and I often get myself hard to shave. My mistress likes her cock to be soft and smooth. I finished shaving and then I was one step away anyway so I went for it.
6. My mistress woke up at 3:30am and was feeling frisky, so she woke me up and used me for her pleasure. I used my hands to bring her to climax, keeping my right hand in her pussy and using my left hand on her nipples and arms and hair. When she came, she then offered me her pussy which I happily accepted.
7. I was feeling horny and I was all alone at home so I did a quick one in the bathroom before work.
Mistress and I have been talking about her dominance. She was listening to a podcast that kind of lays out some of the power struggles that can arise in a D/S relationship and the confidence it takes to make it work. My mistress feels she is not as confident as she would like, but is certainly wanting to get there.
I have a drive to understand things, and this has long been a point of contention in our D/S lifestyle - She often wants things from me and I want to know why. I don't want to refuse her, I just want to understand. She believes that whenever I say "why" I am questioning her authority. She also believes that whenever she humors me with her reasons (calling it "giving me a cookie"), it is that she is questioning her own authority, and that is not the way she wants to be as a dominant. It is also not the situation I want to put her in as a submissive.
So, our tasks lately are for me to curb the "why" and just go with what she says and live with the uncomfortable feeling of not understanding everything, and for her to not give me the cookie when I so desperately want it.