Pussy Worship
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006HolidaysHope you all had a lovely holiday, whatever one (or more!) you celebrate. I got a crop in my stocking. And the Jay Wiseman book on bondage (holy cow, the knots alone are intimidating, but I am determined...). And the movie Secretary. Happy Lady. Actually, I should say that I didn't get those things in my stocking at all, but in the bedroom far away from the little ones' prying eyes. Hee. Pet got a pillow for sitting at my feet. Fifteen minutes of pet brushing my hair was really nice, this morning. Like a small amount of body worship, an island in a sea of opened presents ;) Peace. Thursday, December 21, 2006Kicking the shins of reluctanceWe are all sick, which means we are all crabby, lol. Actually, I'm on the mend and almost back to normal, yay! After watching pet follow me around like, well, a little pet puppy dog, desperate for my attention, I finally managed to kick the shins of my reluctance long enough to have a nice session. He sat while I soaked in a bath, keeping me company and generally mooning about, then we moved to the bedroom where we had a really enjoyable lovemaking session--I finally felt like my old self a bit, and managed to whack the hell out of pet's ass for a while before curling up in our heated bed to sleep. Everything, for a change, felt right with the world. Of course, in the morning pet woke up with a sinus infection. Sigh. Sometimes, being a good domme means knowing how to give the "have hot tea and take a nap" orders. Heh. **Thanks to everyone for your supportive comments! I have no plans to stop blogging, and I appreciate that I'm not driving anyone but myself to distraction ;) I love this community! Friday, December 15, 2006HmI've run out of new things to say here. I'm not ready to kill the blog, I've found a lot of benefit from it. I worry I've become too repetitive in recent months to be worth much to others. To wit: I struggle. I struggle with enacting the firm hand we both want for our relationship and our bedroom. I find myself shutting down even when the opportunity presents itself--which it doesn't often, as you all know. I know this is fear, I know exactly what is causing the problem, yet I'm at the wall. I have no idea how to change this internal shut down process. I've employed pet's help--he's been assigned to be more forward, for a while, about sexual activities, rather than sitting back and letting me decide. No, that's not right. I've asked him to wait for me in bed, spanking tools laid out, naked. I've asked him to get out the restraints and ask me to use them. I've asked him to present himself for whatever play we've BOTH wanted but I've been unable or unwilling (though, not consciously), to enact myself. I realize this is a stepping back of power exchange. I don't particularly like it, even. But I think it is what will get me over that wall, or through it, and into the kind of Domme I dream of being. I'm not really a big fan of this idea, but I've gotten help with it and this is what was recommended. I'll try anything once, I'm kinky after all. Anyhow, for now we're not going anywhere. I don't want to shut down anything yet. I just hope this doesn't get to be one of those blogs where we talk a lot and say nothing new. Monday, December 04, 2006There's nothing weird about me!Hahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Tagged by saratoga: 6 weird things about me: 1. I hate back rubs. They mostly hurt. 2. I have to sleep under a fan, even when it is really cold. 3. I'm a gigantic Stephen King fan, read everything he puts out. 4. I abhor drama. So much so that I think we get less readers than we could if I played the drama card. But I don't care. Drama sucks. 5. I feel more dominant when I wear black, when I wear a skirt, and when I wear boots. 6. I rarely cook on weekends. I hate to cook, in general. I do like to bake, though. I don't tag, but if you feel like a meme, help yourself :) |
