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Wednesday, June 28, 2006Sweet LifeI was up most of the night for reasons I won't even go into again! If only I drank, so I could blame it on a wild party...sigh. But suffice it to say I was exhausted, finally dropping off to sleep around 5:30 a.m. I was certainly not up for getting two busy kids off to their respective schools. So pet did it for me. He didn't wake me to ask any questions or to see if I was going to get up, he just got up and handled everything. I can't say this is entirely because of our D/s lifestyle--after all, a good husband is considerate no matter what. But the fact that he took care of me without complaint (again!) makes me all proud and tingly. He deserves a reward, don't you think? That, plus completing a task I set out for him, earned him something I reserve for very special occasions. Maybe he'll post about it soon. All you guys who want a wife in charge can take a lesson from a well behaved and loving pet like mine :) Monday, June 26, 2006RestraintThere is something really compelling about restraining another person. Especially, for me, someone bigger than myself. I love the feeling of control it gives me. When restrained, the feeling of surrender is never as good for me as the feeling of being in charge. Eh, I'm a top. A simple act such as holding pet's hands over his head while I fuck him adds to the sexual experience in ways I never imagined. And rope? Yum. I've never wanted a four poster bed before, but somehow, now, I can see the appeal. Saturday, June 17, 2006Top from BelowA commonly used phrase, often misunderstood. Besides that, we all attribute our own meaning to the words in this lifestyle--submissive, slave, domme, master, etc etc etc. But I'll say what it means for me. My pet is always snarky. He's always got a little goof in his life, and that is excellent. Life is far too serious as it is--to be all dramatic is not really our style. To that end, he is often goofing around, trying to boss me around and basically egging me on to smack his snarky ass. I have no trouble with this. I rather enjoy smacking his ass. But on the flip side is the true topping from below he sometimes does. He sometimes gets afraid, gets withdrawn, ya know, basically feels human feelings and reacts badly to them. (and I never, ever do that. I am perfect ;) The thing is, he acts very nearly the same as above--little side comments and snark. But the tone is different, and it is clear to me he is rejecting my dominance. That leaves me hurt, confused, and not a little pissed off. The trouble we have is that I will point it out, and he will insist it is behavior #1--the fun kind. But I know better, and usually after a few hours of thought, so does he. The great thing about us is that behavior #2 is decreasing greatly as our trust and belief in our chosen lifestyle deepens. As his trust of me and in my desire for his happiness as well as my own deepens. saratoga wrote about wants vs. needs in his last post, and I understand the basic concept. The fact is, for us, I concern myself with what will move our lives along the smoothest and what will bring us the most pleasure as a family and as a couple. Sometimes that does mean addressing pet's wants as well as his needs. I see nothing wrong with that. My dominance is not a neglectful one, but a loving one. As it turns out, what led us here to begin with is what pet generally wants is what brings me the most pleasure. Bonus. Friday, June 16, 2006GlimpsesA glimpse of a life led in our way: A very tired lady falling asleep mid-pedicure A very snarky pet with many, many little heart shaped marks on his ass An evening spent just sitting on the couch together, reconnecting after a busy day A slow and lovely backrub that left me, in the end, needing to launder my clothes for the amount of fluids that wound up on them Life is good Tuesday, June 13, 2006A WeekI hadn't realized I let a whole week go by again. Shoot. I've been writing on other fronts so I find myself blocked when it comes to our little D/s corner of the blog world. Things go well, happily. We have found ourselves on a very even keel. There's more I want. There's always more to want. When we go away together, we'll have to pack an entire extra bag for toys. Good thing we're not flying! |
