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Tuesday, September 27, 2005Second ChancesSometimes, I'm surprised at my luck. Usually, it is bad. Today, I'm doing the happy dance because I scored an advanced copy of Lauren Dane's Second Chances, and I read the whole thing in two greedy days. The book is set to be released today at Loose ID, in e-book format. I've talked about her other books here, as well. Second Chances is a romance novel with a delicious twist--D/s! The protagonist is a submissive woman finding herself after a time away from home. She is just discovering her submission, with the help of some hunky guys. Lauren Dane does a beautiful job of telling the story of love between a Dom and sub. So many stories of D/s (including mine!) focus on the sexual aspect. Ms. Dane goes out of her way to explore the love, the feelings of protection and adoration that exist between two people in a consensual power exchange. Seems to me that new ground is being broken here, and I like it! Not that the book is devoid of sex--lots of steamy scenes to keep your juices flowing! I don't want to give too much of the plot away, so I'll keep this short. Second Chances is an open and tender exploration of love D/s style. There's some sadness, enough to make me teary. There's plenty of sensuality and sexuality. Friendship, family, and beautiful collaring ceremony. If you would like to download the book now (I'm so all about immediate gratification--for me, not pet of course lol) go here: http://www.loose-id.com/detail.aspx?ID=225 Enjoy! Friday, September 23, 2005Dis and DatI'm working on part two of Surprise, but for some reason it is like pulling teeth. I have it in my head fine, but it won't come out. Sigh. That's why I'm not a pro writer like others here on the kinkernet. Two boys? Seriously this should not be hard writing. We're going out tonight! No kids, to a movie! Gee I feel all grown up. Pet offered to wear his collar for the occasion, which is a huge risk considering it is a straight up dog collar, not ornamental at all. He thinks he can sneak it by his PARENTS without notice. I say, well, humiliation seems to turn him on anyway, so woot! This collar wearing thing is, I suspect, the culmination of a "discussion"/argument/come to terms moment we had last weekend about where we are going D/s wise. We talked a lot, and the final word was (taking a few hours/days of discussion and summing it up in one sentence) "prove you truly desire to submit, not just play kinky, and we go forward". That sounds really threatening, but I swear it is not a threat of any kind. I will always be with this man, the D/s is what is at stake, not us. Never us. No matter what the future brings--poly, D/s, more kids, no more kids, more money, less money, moving, staying put, whatEVER--I am committed and so is he. This is it folks, the real deal. So we'll see how the D/s turns out. I have faith, always, in my pet's bravery and desire to be his true self, whatever that is. One last thing. Mona of Creative Nights In asked why we deleted a (well half) nekkid picture of me the other day. She is certainly quite brave in her "showings" over at her blog, and I highly recommend a trip over there. HOT! There's a couple reasons: 1. I think it was originally on Loveline back when it was a decent radio show, but some radio DJ was giving out romance advice when I was 17 or 18, and the NUMBER ONE RULE was "don't let your boyfriend take pictures of you naked". For some reason, I've always adhered. I felt it to be a personal expression of my self respect. PERSONAL--because I don't think anyone who takes nekkid pics or lets their partner take nekkid pics is disrespecting themselves. To each their own, of course, and I have great respect for those that risk and bare all, because... 2. I'm not a typically beautiful girl. I'm not ugly. I have a way about me that is sexy and even pretty, I think. I've come to accept my body and it's flaws and character over time. I treat it fairly well, but give it too many calories and my genetics suck. Therefore--I'm a bigger girl. That is ok with me now, but really, I don't need the negativity from troll commentors or just nasty people. Maybe pet will share how he sees me--his opinion is way better than any mirror or picture could be. And he is always bummed when I say no nekkid pics, lol. Eh, maybe someday. The brave girls out there like Mona and Sarah inspire me! Tuesday, September 20, 2005Surprise 1This one didn't happen either. "I have a surprise for you, pet," she said, and he could hear the purr in her voice. He was a bit afraid, but quite excited. Her surprises were always unique, often painful but usually fantastic. And never had she done something they had not discussed before hand. She was a responsible Mistress after all. She produced the rope and blindfold, and proceeded to tie him to the bed. She tied each wrist and ankle to a corner, leaving him spread eagle and face down. He couldn't see or move. He settled in, comfortable and happily submissive. That's when he heard the voice, the other voice in the room. "You were right, Mistress, his ass is gorgeous." Just the sound of that voice made his flesh pucker and his blood chill. He was really scared now, but his cock betrayed him by growing stiffer into the mattress. The voice was that of K, the topless sub they had met at the play parties. The friendship they had built with him was about to pay off, big time. K was a confirmed bisexual man, and pet wondered what was in store for him, a boy-sex virgin. He was curious, sure, and even aroused by the idea. Mistress knew this, obviously, or K wouldn't be there. As if reading his mind, he felt her lips brush his ear "remember your safe word, pet," she reminded him he could always call things off if he chose. He suspected he would choose otherwise. tbc... Friday, September 16, 2005PostingI've started three posts or so, then ran into writer's block. It's not that I don't have stuff to say about D/s or pet, it's just that I'm not sure how to say it. My eloquence is running short. In good news, my orgasm has made a mini return--that is to say it appears unexpectedly from time to time, but then again disappears again randomly. In fact, during a lovely play session the other night I dried up all together despite enjoying myself thoroughly. What's up with that? Eh, I still blame hormones, because I know I'm aroused mentally, and even physically. I can feel the rush of heat to my loins, I can feel the tingly goodness, I can feel the ache to be filled by him. Just not the push over the orgasmic cliff. We've been negotiating the terms of our interactions lately. Pet is still hesitant on many fronts submissively (though his kink factor is through the roof). He is just having the hardest time really letting go. I think trust issues run very deep here, which spurns hurt and resentment but also intimacy and love like no other. We have a very clean history, him and I. Neither of us have done any lying or true hurtful things to each other which is awesome. In fact, even our worst fights are always respectful and the anger is always tempered with respect. However, both of us have tough pasts to overcome, and it is a cryin' shame that our past crap has to come back in the bedroom. That, as they say, blows. So, we keep on truckin' and getting closer and more open and more domme and sub as things come along. We owe this blog some sexy postage (we do have some to report, orgasm or not hot stuff has occurred). I put pet on the job, which means he has to carve out time from his much busier life. I bought my hurricane relief porn--very excited to see it arrive. I also bought "A Touch of Fae", a new erotica fantasy by Lauren Dane. I read it in one day, it rocked. I have to say I liked the first one a bit better ("Triad"), but only because I have a truly special place in my heart for two boys at the same time. Monday, September 12, 2005Another F/m journalI discovered "ibelongtomadame" while surfing around. An enjoyable read, to be sure! I admire all of the little subs out there willing to share their experiences. I know it can't be easy in this patriarchal world. Wednesday, September 07, 2005Porn with a PurposeCheck this out! Comstock films is donating some proceeds from sales on September 14th to the Katrina relief effort. Head on over to Freya's House for the full story. Cool, porn you can feel really EXTRA good about buying! Tuesday, September 06, 2005What I Learned This Weekend1. Sudafed is goooooooooooooooooood. 2. Oh my, having my ankles tied is fun. I really enjoyed that more than I expected to. Something about the openess, the vulnerability, and the feeling of my lover back there looking at me, sizing up the possibilities of me. And if I felt this way, how will my little sub feel when I get him tied? I'm looking forward to this. 3. Ah spanking. It is so much more fun than I imagined it would be. I really enjoy the redness, the goose bumps he gets, the twitching, the yelping. I like that he knew I would spank him harder and more if he asked, and he did ask--indirectly. I really like that. And I like to receive as well, but I've always known I like a bit of pain. 4. Floggers are expensive. 5. I still want one! Any suggestions? 6. One can enjoy sex without orgasm, really enjoy it. Still miss the orgasm, but I'm enjoying the lack of pressure on either of us to "achieve" anything outside of a good time. 7. Pet is very much the bratty bottom at times, which can be hard to track because sometimes he really wants to be punished (see number 3), and somtimes he's not into subbing at all. Patience, patience in all things D/s. Things are easier all the time, but it has been a struggle to get there in an open, clear manner. Such is life. 8. For Secretive Slave: Yes we are mad rushed. Too much real life, not enough play time. The price we pay for having our darlings Stewie and the Older One. Our kids are awesome, and both of us would gladly step in front of a bus rather than experience life without them. And, this means that we have less grown up time. I know this will pass as they grow, and someday we'll be bugging them to talk to us at all let alone monopolize our time like this. I know I suffer sexually because I have two thirds of my mind on the laundry and the bills and the baby moniter and LIFE in general. I would love love love to have an empty house for 5 good hours. Of course, knowing us we'd spend 4 of them napping! But I want to enjoy their babyhood and childhood while I can, too, so the kink gets rushed. You're perceptive as always, and M is a lucky girl! Monday, September 05, 2005KatrinaWell, I have little to say about it. We reserve this blog for fun, but I can't stay altogether silent when I see what is going on there. Tom, here, says it much more intelligently than I can. Donate to the relief effort here. Sunday, September 04, 2005Picture Post 1(Him) I drew this, then scanned it, and then colored it. It is a suggest pic involving a woman in high heels, a hard cock, and a butt plug, placed suggestively near the man's ass. Is it us? Sometimes. She wears high heels sometimes, not because I like it, but because I love it, and usually she's teasing me by wearing them. As for the butt plug and the hard cock, I would say yes, my cock is hard and we do use a purple butt plug on me time and again. The cock is pretty huge compared to me, though, but I probably turn redder when she really gets me going. My ass gets even redder than that when I get her going on a spanking-me kick. |
