Wednesday, April 26, 2006More on D/s outside of sex
Or, I could just copy/paste Lenora's post, seen here. She rocked this one.
Sometimes, I find myself too involved in our situation to be particularly eloquent about it. I'm frustrated, I'm nervous, I'm horny, I'm all those things and giddy happy and more on a daily basis, because we are in love and living our lives together. That means more than just this D/s business. It means a whole host of things.
I love my husband. That will never change.
You can read our archives and see how we've journeyed here, and that we both know there is more journey to come. Each day gives me an opportunity to confront my fears and allow myself to be fully dominant, fully myself. Each day gives pet an opportunity to confront his fears and be fully submissive. Fully himself. We have past hurts in our lives that keep us from trusting easily. That doesn't mean we can't, just that we have to be aware.
Pet's submission to me, while not perfect (cause we all know I AM perfect, heh), is certainly more than I could have asked for. I honestly never expected him to participate at all. I'm very grateful for each attempt we make to go deeper together. We will continue to make attempts.
I might get frustrated and want more--so might he. We'll get through it, learn and grow as we always do. I do believe this takes two people who are consenting, and to consent you have to be fully informed. Consider our fussing just that, a way to increase our knowledge of ourselves.
I'll instruct pet to add his comments, also.