Thursday, December 22, 2005Real World Blues
Midnight feedings (yes, still)+
One frustrated Domme with missing libido
One wayward sub with very healthy libido
Zero alone time to reconnect
Nearly no sex
I'm not really complaining, exactly, because life is beautiful. Just missing one key element. Not just D/s sex but sex in general. Sigh. It's like when I loose it sometimes I have a hard time getting it back. Life is easier when I can just jerk him off and be done with it. He's satisfied and off my back, I'm sleeping soundly, everyone is happy right? Not really.
The extra effort it takes to establish deep intimacy, connection, then dominance is a long time in coming these days, but I'm looking for it. I want pet to know that. I'm looking for it.
I'm dreaming of an island far away from distractions and "have-tos" where I can beat him as soundly as he wants and no one will wake up. Where I can fuck his ass as long as I want and the dildo lubricates itself. Where we can walk on the beach and he can wash my feet in the water. Where he can call me (whatever, we haven't decided yet) and I can call him pet and no one will look askance. Where I can collar him for anyone to see. Where the jacuzzi fits eight comfortably. Where the water is warm, the pina coladas are cold, and all the houseboys wear g-strings. It's "Her" land. Like that other famous land, only for grown ups. Kinky grownups. When I get rich, I'll send you the address.
I love my kids dearly, I love my family and my life. I need a friggin' vacation!! :)