Friday, September 16, 2005Posting
I've started three posts or so, then ran into writer's block. It's not that I don't have stuff to say about D/s or pet, it's just that I'm not sure how to say it. My eloquence is running short.
In good news, my orgasm has made a mini return--that is to say it appears unexpectedly from time to time, but then again disappears again randomly. In fact, during a lovely play session the other night I dried up all together despite enjoying myself thoroughly. What's up with that? Eh, I still blame hormones, because I know I'm aroused mentally, and even physically. I can feel the rush of heat to my loins, I can feel the tingly goodness, I can feel the ache to be filled by him. Just not the push over the orgasmic cliff.
We've been negotiating the terms of our interactions lately. Pet is still hesitant on many fronts submissively (though his kink factor is through the roof). He is just having the hardest time really letting go. I think trust issues run very deep here, which spurns hurt and resentment but also intimacy and love like no other. We have a very clean history, him and I. Neither of us have done any lying or true hurtful things to each other which is awesome. In fact, even our worst fights are always respectful and the anger is always tempered with respect. However, both of us have tough pasts to overcome, and it is a cryin' shame that our past crap has to come back in the bedroom. That, as they say, blows. So, we keep on truckin' and getting closer and more open and more domme and sub as things come along.
We owe this blog some sexy postage (we do have some to report, orgasm or not hot stuff has occurred). I put pet on the job, which means he has to carve out time from his much busier life.
I bought my hurricane relief porn--very excited to see it arrive. I also bought "A Touch of Fae", a new erotica fantasy by Lauren Dane. I read it in one day, it rocked. I have to say I liked the first one a bit better ("Triad"), but only because I have a truly special place in my heart for two boys at the same time.