5. I was in the shower, and I often get myself hard to shave. My mistress likes her cock to be soft and smooth. I finished shaving and then I was one step away anyway so I went for it.
6. My mistress woke up at 3:30am and was feeling frisky, so she woke me up and used me for her pleasure. I used my hands to bring her to climax, keeping my right hand in her pussy and using my left hand on her nipples and arms and hair. When she came, she then offered me her pussy which I happily accepted.
7. I was feeling horny and I was all alone at home so I did a quick one in the bathroom before work.
Mistress and I have been talking about her dominance. She was listening to a podcast that kind of lays out some of the power struggles that can arise in a D/S relationship and the confidence it takes to make it work. My mistress feels she is not as confident as she would like, but is certainly wanting to get there.
I have a drive to understand things, and this has long been a point of contention in our D/S lifestyle - She often wants things from me and I want to know why. I don't want to refuse her, I just want to understand. She believes that whenever I say "why" I am questioning her authority. She also believes that whenever she humors me with her reasons (calling it "giving me a cookie"), it is that she is questioning her own authority, and that is not the way she wants to be as a dominant. It is also not the situation I want to put her in as a submissive.
So, our tasks lately are for me to curb the "why" and just go with what she says and live with the uncomfortable feeling of not understanding everything, and for her to not give me the cookie when I so desperately want it.
I have been enjoying your posts, having read it from the beginning, and missing the pleasure while you pause with your writing.
ReplyDeleteYour Lady sounds very much like my wife, who is not always sure of herself. Any questioning of her decisions does not add to her self confidence. I, too, had to struggle with responding properly to her suggestions, requests, and orders. I am over that. She does not take over my decision making, but when she wants something, unless it gets into what I would consider dangerous or overly costly in resouces, I will comply. Over the years this has accomplished two things: she is more certain that she is in charge, and I get a special thrill out of following her lead regardless of how I might feel about its effect on the circumstances. This puts her in charge, and therefore, she knows that she has the responsibility.
We seldom do anything that the unenlightened could interpret as my being pussy whipped, so the "responsibility" is not really an issue. With respect to ordinary events, she is happy to take the responsibility, and I never question her any more. She enjoys her power when she sees me being her obedient servant, pet, lover, and in some respect, slave. She also enjoys disciplining me when I don't measure up to her expectations.
Nice thoughts... In our relationship, when I question Her as to 'why", it is usually non-productive. Usually it is better for me to simply comply. If She feels like telling me why (which is a fair percentage of the time) it is strictly a courtesy.
ReplyDeleteNice blog. keep it up.
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Glad to see you back posting. Hope everyone is healthy!
ReplyDeletei find it very hard not to ask "why" also..it in no way meant to be questioning MJ's judgment or authority, but rather, in my case at least, a sincere desire to understand Him better and be more in tune with His desires.
Still, while i don't think it undermines His confidence, He finds it...let's just say "insubordinate". So rarely do i get the "cookie" when i ask. Interestingly, i find it must make Him examine His process as i find Him revisiting my "question" at some future date, more expansively....and then sometimes NOT.
D/s is very much like dance...one leads, the other follows...but always connected. OK..that's my metaphor for the early AM..gotta go make breakfast!
Thanks for coming back to your loyal readers.
~s/nik
I have read a few of these posts on your blog and it reminds Me of My own pet's blog at LoveForhisMistress.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteLovely blog. Keep serving and posting!